Yesterday, I failed.

Four days into this program and I have already ended my streak. I failed my diet, failed being optimistic, and even failing to do a blog post. This isn’t much of the problem at hand, but rather, my feeling towards these failures

See, despite having failed my goals for the day, I didn’t feel at most disappointed at myself. (It might really be because of the delicious mouth watering lunch that I had yesterday though….)

So to recap my day, here’s what I have done for the day.

I woke up at 8am, did some mild stretching, and proceeded to eat my Salad (its really coming together now, yay!) then went to my school’s gym to do some jogging.

The start of the day was really nice, and today, I had company with me to run around the oval. At first I thought it was really gonna be awkward since my other two companions were fitter than me. But it turns out it is better to have them because they will be the one to keep pushing you to go further. In the end, I managed to have 20 full minutes of cardio. One of my friends then suggested we do and ab workout and, being as the #roadtofitness people that we were, we obliged.

She asked me how many minutes we should do, 5, 8, or 10 and in my mind, I was like only 10 minutes max for the ab workout?! Then I became a little modest and tried 8. Oh boy halfway there I was dying.

But I did it, I finished it up and really felt great (and sore) but felt great!

Another reason why we did this was actually to prepare ourselves for a food trip that was planned later that afternoon. And so began my failures.

It was my first time going to Hole In The Wall, a place that had gained fame for their chic interior and delicious food. Everyone of us were first timers there so we really did not know what to expect. When we went inside, we were expecting some classy restaurant, but instead, it was a really cute food court with different stalls and each stall was absolutely divine!

Everything was so cute and delicious so we had a hard time deciding what to eat. After a while, I settled for Bad Bird, because of the countless instagram posts that I’ve seen about them.

 Umami spiced fried chicken with sweet potato waffles. Considering that I’m still in my Paleo Diet, it was hard to figure out which was okay and which werent okay in eating. I initially opted to eat only the chicken, but then there was waffles. Sweet heavenly waffles. Did I mention that I LOVE WAFFLES?! Not like, but LOVE. As in I can marry a waffle cart just so I can get free waffles. And this Paleo Diet is killing me because of that.

Although, the waffles werent technically a violation to my diet, since it used sweet potato, that meal really lived up to its name… Cause its really bad for your health. Total calories of the meal? 908 CALORIES. Ugh. I was actually feeling full after devouring the first chicken and waffle but it really hurts me to see leftover food so I had to eat it. It’s not really a bad trait, but its a bad habit for your health 😦

Afterwards, we roamed around the mall and, feeling full, we decided to call it a day because we all think we need a ciesta hahaha!

I actually felt bad for eating that much thats why I YOLOd myself with my other goals:(

I do hope next time, I dont need to eat that much.

Till next time,

Cheers,

Marie

A good way to end a bad day

I’m finally inside my room! But I still can’t shake the fact that I wasted so much to something that was opened in around 30 seconds. Yes, that’s how easy it was to open my door!

After I got reunited with my room interior, I took a quick bath, changed into some decent clothes and then proceed to going to a mall for a certain skin procedure that I’m not quite ready to share yet. I also had a lot of personal errands to do: get one of my bags’ zipper fixed, buy some make-up (like I even do make up HAHA) for some performances (I’m a dancer in my university), and also, do some grocery shopping for my Paleo Dorm Diet.

It was already 3PM when I finished with my skin procedure appointment and I immediately went to the department store to buy my make up.

At this point, I’d like to share to you that as part of my Self Improvement Journey, I challenged myself to smile ALL the time! This also includes having an uplifting tone (as opposed to the normal deep snob tone I do), and try not to judge other mall-goers (which, believe me, was really one heck of challenge HAHA).

CAN I JUST SAY HOW COSTLY IT IS TO BE BEAUTIFUL?!?! I mean, … I don’t know I’m speechless about how much I spent today! 

 On the other hand, LEG MAKE UP! I’m reallllly happy right now! As a dancer with lots of bruises and scars, this is a LIFE SAVER!

After buying all those make up (that hopefully hopefully hopefully would work wonders on my face), I noticed that the mall’s department store had this promo that if you have a P1000.00 single receipt, you’ll have a free serving of Classic Savory’s sweet and sour fish fillet + iced tea (no rice though which was PERFECT).

I was so excited because yay free dinner and was planning to have it as take out for my dinner tonight in the dorm but the waitress said it’s only for dine in customers.

Frugality kicked in and, well, guess who (finally) ate alone in public today because it’s free dinner!!! And mind you, I never eat alone in public (So much for slef esteem right? HAHA!)

  Surprisingly, it was a really fun experience, having a bill of Php0.00! The staff there were also very nice a friendly! Although, there was this one waiter who was extremely friendly, and I felt so awkward and everything so I just did small talk with him! This is the part where I tell you guys that during my conversation with that waiter, my mindset was that he liked me and I know that’s really gross and I’m such a feeler and ugh I hate myself for thinking that!!!

After “paying” the bill, I was ready to go home. I opted for a cab ride home but decided against it as it’s really expensive and maybe I could use the exercise since I didn’t have the chance to have one today (read: Locked Out of Heaven (aka my room)). So I walked to the main highway, which is about i-really-dont-have-an-idea-how-to-describe-this-distance-since-I-dont-know-how-to-count-blocks, and took a jeepney ride home. Piece of advice, don’t do this if you’re carrying four bags of grocery alone. But hey, I survived so maybe you can do it! Haha!

Today definitely ended on a positive note! As soon as I got home, I prepared the salad that I’d soon be devouring (which I will discuss in the next post).

But definitely, the highlight of this day was the reactions of the different people that I’ve interacted with, after I decided to smile at them and focus on my journey to self improvement. The cashiers were nice, the assistants were very thoughtful, and it really helped me on thinking about positive things!

This might also be a social experiment (considering I am rather an analytical type of person). And it all concludes by the concept of the golden rule: Do unto others what you want others to do to you!

June 30, 2015 – improved

Cheers,
Marie

Locked out of Heaven (aka my room)

So today I got locked out of my room. Just my luck, really.

I don’t know, but this has already been like a routine in my life… I do something productive, I start changing myself for the better the BOOM something totally negative happens to me. I now realize why I end up not havong changed anything in my life: that there’s this attitude slash phenomenon that when something bad happens, we tend to just YOLO around because something bad happens.

Don’t get me? Think of it this way.

You’ve tried dieting for about 5-6days now and you’ve been really really strict with it and you’ve maybe seen some changes in your weight (which I highly think is just water weight) but then your friends invite you to eat out. And it’s pizza. Heaven-sent double crusted pizza. PIZZA. Now you just can’t seem to resist eating one teeny tiny slice and because we have this mindset that we do deserve this teeny tiny slice of heaven. But then it became two, now three slices. AND YOU’RE WAY PAST YOUR CALORIE LIMIT NOW. You probably think you should stop, right? WRONG. We’ve all been there, and most of the time, we’d simply eat more and think that we’ll go back to dieting the next day, thinking nothing has changed. BUT EVERYTHING CHANGES.

We tend to crave more, eat more, and we feel so bloated and heavy that it’s hard to exercise. And, in the end, we quit everything because “this diet doesn’t work”

So now, let’s relate this to my present scenario. It’s 9AM, I head to my college gymnasium for some exercise. When I got there, I fished my bag for my ID and…

It wasn’t there.

Coincidentally, my keys were attached to my ID sling. Just my luck oh my gosh I am such a klutz! I actually went back to my room and was severely hoping that i became a klutz again and forgot to lock my door. Unfortunately, I wasn’t as clumsy as I thought.

  Got my shoes on and I was so ready for a good workout! (Maybe I can do cardio while running in hallway? Haha!)

Now, I do have some spare keys. One was with my sister, but she was still at home, in a different city than where I was. The other one was with my cousin, who unfortunately forgot the keys in her house and can’t be back till night time. So okay, I won’t be expecting any help from those two.

My last option was to get a locksmith, so I asked the guard of my building and he says the management knows one that costs four hundred and fifty freaking pesos!!! And mind you, thats already about five meals!

Frugality kicked in and I absolutely tried EVERYTHING except get a locksmith. (I even considered sleeping over at a friend’s house just to wait for my cousin to get the keys)

Okay, breaking: While writing this post (in my phone, mind you), i’m actually sitting in front of my door just to get a signal from the wifi HAHAHA and just now a guard actually came to me because he saw me in the CCTV. Can I just say how embarrassing this is?!?

Okay, back to the story. I refuse to believe that a locksmith costs P450 so I took matters to my own hands and searched for one in the internet, I only called one to ask for their service fee and it only costs P285!!! I know I should asked around more but I was already nearing my phone’s credit limit to calls!

And now, here I am, writing this post to pass the time. Maybe I should start learning how to lockpick? Maybe. But for now, i’d focus of fitness first 😉 till next time!

Cheers,

Marie

The Blogging Challenge

I’m really surprised how easy it is for me to create blog posts. I know there’s only been two posts but I really wonder how come I can make a 600-word blog post in 15 minutes as compared to a 500 word essay in two hours…

Wondering aside, I now present The Blogging Challenge. Similar to those workout challenges (read: The 30 days squat challenge) or the diet challenges, I plan to have a blog post everyday in order for me to reflect on what I have done for the day.

I also do not know the psychology for this but I really thing blogging about my weight loss journey would be extremely helpful (hopefully).

So now WHY blog? I actually spent over an hour thinking about this… and here are my four three main goals for blogging.

1. College + Fitness. I basically have described this earlier in this post. I really do plan that we could still stay(be) fit in college.

2. The Road to Self Improvement. AKA No more rants, no more negative thoughts, and practicing my inner kindness.

3. This is really something unnecessary but in case my blog goes viral, people can share things here HAHA. wow.

4. FOR THE FAME AND FORTUNE. Which probably would never happen.

And that, my dear readers, is why I decide to blog (I had a lot to say than this in my mind though but I got discouraged because I CANNOT GET HOW WORDPRESS FORMATS THEIR POSTS UGH [and thus I have already failed at goal number 2])

That’s it for now!

Cheers,

Marie

I should make a blog.

Never have I ever thought of pursuing a blog.

There were too many reasons like, I was too obsessive compulsive. If I were to make a blog, it has to be perfect. The theme should be great, the writing should be amazing, and for me, that’s just too much work. I also thought having a blog was too cheesy, as I wasn’t the kind of girl who talks about their feelings. I also have this anxiety issue where if my real life friends would see this, I’m afraid they’ll make fun of me (and probably, at this point, they’re already judging me).

Yet, here I am, writing my first ever blog post. Fascinating how this idea just casually popped into my mind three hours ago.

See, I started going to the gym last month. It wasn’t really a “because I want to lose weight” action but more of a “I HAVE NOTHING TO DO OVER THE SUMMER!”, but the weight loss idea is still there somewhere. I actually wanted to lose weight since ever five years ago, and sometimes, I did try doing those crazy diets, but eventually failing. Which led me to being full blast YOLO  with my body.

But hey, tomorrow’s a new day, right? So now, after countless efforts of trying and trying and trying to lose weight, and asking myself numerous times why I COULDN’T lose weight when in fact I’ve read A LOT of blogs that has already posted their before and after photos of weight transformation, and even copying all their weird tactics to lose weight, I now realize that thing I’ve been missing out — a blog.

And so, this blog was born – in the hopes that maybe the movement of my fingertips as they graced around the keyboard would be the key to losing all those pounds. Also, for those who know me in real life, please note that I don’t intent to share this blog!!! Please please please don’t tell other people about this (and thus, anxiety kicks in). Who knows, maybe I’ll have the courage to go public with my friends, but for now, this is all I can afford.

And if you happen to be a complete stranger to me, then just your luck for finding this blog. Haha!

Anyway, this is all for now since I really think it’s too long to read. Wish me luck (yeah, I’m actually talking to no audience though…)

Cheers,

Marie